August 2011
1 post
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one last time (aki+toshiya) one shot.
Maybe we did love each other, somewhere behind our eyelids on the coldest of days when we needed the reassurance that there was still something there. We hadn’t even known each other at the time, did we? It was the middle of 2004, and the airport was a beehive of activity. Honest to God, all I had wanted to do was get out of my terminal, and climb in the nearest taxi to escape the haze of...
July 2011
4 posts
3 tags
(old) aoi + ruki (gazette and more gazette)
Shibuya. The population’s out in throngs hurrying to make their way across the scramble crossing. Their heads pop up briefly, before Ruki watches above as they only disappear once again. The Starbucks across the road is his current sanctuary despite the presence of conversations that he could vaguely hear over the sound of his own thoughts. His eyes disappear into the centre of his...
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(old) uruha + aoi (gazette) breathing
Uruha hums something that describes spring.
His voice is considerably drowned out by the soft plucks of strings on acoustic guitar, but Aoi can still hear the vibrations in his throat. His eyes twitch behind his eyelids, and his chest rises and falls as his body rustles in the sheets its entangled in. Uruha remains in a corner of the bedroom, with his eyes cast off somewhere between the window...
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(old) wataru + mao (12012, sadie) constellation...
walk thin lines, tracing the color of our breaths with our eyes. white.
fingers, we can only feel one another’s, and it doesn’t feel like the blood is circulating through our veins but we’re fine with that.
we’re fine because we have each other.
it’s the dead of winter and not a soul breathes but our own right now. what’s the hour?
the sun set long ago, and we’re still walking, despite...
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(old) yuusuke + wataru (12012, ex-12012) in the...
It was one of those nights where I was suffering insomnia, sitting up in my bed with the candles I had bought in South Africa left half burnt on the dresser of my bed room. I could hear nothing but the occasional car disappear down the street outside the window of my apartment, until I returned to the haze of writing down lyrics on paper towels that were left strewn beside my bed. A car engine...
December 2010
2 posts
'war' (II) ruki
His legs can’t support the weight of his body. His knees are digging into the floor of the hospital room, while his right hand hangs onto the railing of the hospital bed. His fingers are slipping as his body is exhausting itself onto the ground completely, but he refuses to let go. Fingerprints are left behind on the metal rails, and Ruki’s knuckles are losing their color - a shade of...
"war" (aoi)
Was the country crying?
He couldn’t hear anything else but the sound of what felt like gravel kneading against itself above his head. His breath was pressed back in through his mouth by means of the cement wall that had pinned itself on top of his body. Another hoisted up his back, while his hand was the only thing that would be gifted to what could be called freedom. The air against his...
January 2010
4 posts
[script] wataru x ruki "if you were god.."
“wataru, would you stop war if you were god?” ruki asks him without saying the words creases in his face are caked in dirt his eyes are the only portion of himself that lives lips are still, fingers encased in stale blood the departing sun laughed until it sputtered above ruki’s fingers twitch and wataru can see his eyes move up, pupils re-directing themselves towards his face...
[script] die x shinya "the color of hunger"
die understands the color of hunger it is painted on an orange canvas behind shinya on the street corner shinya doesn’t know die sees him waiting the sun is at his back and hungry or perhaps these are die’s own feelings when shinya moves towards the curb die wants to move as well ‘wait, don’t leave.’ shinya leaves when the light turns green it’s late now, their...
[script] kaoru x toshiya "a minute of failure"
he had a minute of failure, chords stung between his fingers the pick dropped and hit the scuff of his boot ”shit” muffled under damp lips he couldn’t concentrate which chord was which, he normally knew toshiya was watching, breath normal though kaoru could hear it over the strings in and out, curiosity building due to kaoru’s pause “Let’s do that again”...
[script] die x kyo "ariya sacca"
(noble truth) the sun bows as pain vibrates sheets are pried from his finger tips his breath is caught in cheek strides that cause his ribcage to collapse his lungs are pressed against his skin back and forth and his breathing whispers against the hollows of his cheek the curtains are drawn and night beckons he rolls over, and counts in his head one, two, three he still doesn’t move, and...
October 2009
4 posts
[prompt] Toshiya x Shinya
“I remember when I was sick one night in the past, when you thought I was asleep, you were talking to me at just after three in the morning. I heard every word you said. You talked to me about everything. Your fears at that time, your life, my life, our life, what you thought, and how every thing I said and did, you took seriously. We’d been together for a long time, but it was the...
[drabble] Kaoru x Shinya
He was never a man that would not come to savor fine liquor. Countries around the world have come to offer him treats that were both bitter and sour. In Chile, when the sun was still high in the sky and the men were still red-faced from the day’s work load, he ordered the country’s natural pride. ‘Spicy green chili’ the bartender spoke to him in rough accented English, which only half translated...
[drabble] "untitled" (Uruha; the Gazette)
Uruha’s only tragic flaw was that he couldn’t protect her.
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Life is all too broad - reality swallows you whole in its thicket you can’t see out of. Uruha thinks this, when he watches her hands struggle to clench his shoulders - veins protruding out along with the muscle and bone of the joints of her hands. Her breath is raging against the shell of his ear, her lips are...
[Drabble] "fragile is not" (Die x Shinya)
Time is forgotten with the upturned cell phone still laying on the carpet beside the pair of boots. Die knew it had to be morning - because the curtains were transparent white, enough to allow the sun to protrude through and crawl across the foot of the bed. He felt the side of a leg nudge his own, and turned to watch Shinya’s bare back rising as the bed sheets slid down to tuck themselves just at...
[Drabble] "Caipirinha" (Die x Toshiya)
Dawn had already made its presence known - rolling in with a fog of humidity that made Die’s breath heavy as he inhaled. The sun was sleepily beginning to drape itself on the horizon, and Die mused over the fact that it was already a steady seventy degrees. His sigh was exaggerated, still fatigued after spending the evening in the pool that accompanied the hotel’s top floor. Toshiya had made a...
[Drabble] "pushing a limit" (Kaoru x Kyo)
He’s testing himself to see how far he could go, and Kaoru’s torn between pride and consideration. He’s watching Kyo, whose watching his feet, which have been in the same spot since they’d entered that hotel room after a fourteen hour flight. Kyo won’t mention the bleariness of his eyes, and Kaoru notices but knows it’s not needed to say anything. Kaoru...
[Drabble] "food for the masses" (Karyu x Die)
Die could read the rumors through the vine they hung on, but he never does take them any farther than grands of salt. He occasionally will pull the laptop’s power cord out of its socket with a chuckle - and Karyu looks up from across the room, wondering what made him laugh this time. Karyu has his share of skeletons and rumors, often more blasphemous than the next. Perhaps, rumors are what...
September 2009
7 posts
[Drabble] "body image" (implied Kaoru x Die)
Die was flaunting his weight loss, and it caused the hairs on Kaoru’s arms to stand on end and his blood to boil underneath his skin. Kaoru’s jaw tightened as he watched Die’s reflection in the mirror of the cramped apartment, as his hands gripped the edge of the sink. Die had already lost four more pounds.
Kaoru knew there was nothing Die had to prove to anyone else, and had...
[Drabble] "praha" (Kaoru x Shinya)
The city was sleepy, up on a hill with its secrets hidden away down narrow walkways, paved by cobblestones. The sun wasn’t out that early in the morning, the cigarette between his fingers shuddered, skin already flush with the presence of the morning’s chilly weather. Kaoru couldn’t think of a name for the type of architecture he’d seen once they had crossed the border into...
[Drabble] "lust" (Kaoru x Shinya)
The already present obscurity between professional and personal continued to veer from the safely traced line that Kaoru had etched, that had kept his stubbornness in check. That line had always been his safety net, his right and wrong mantra. Though he’d come to feast off the noise Shinya’s body made as it hit the mattress of hotel beds, the rough exhale of oxygen that would come...
August 2009
15 posts
[Anime, YGO] Burning Shadows Alive; (Atem x Thief...
Prayer didn’t reach his ears too often anymore. The hope of a god’s mercy as distant as the sun’s hidden bands by the tops of pyramids. He never saw the sun much anymore as well, unless it was already the beginning of twilight and his shadow had already begun to disappear beneath his heels. When he’d sleep during the day, he’d dream of the face of a man he...
[Snippet] Love as you are ( ?? x ?? )
Sometimes he could feel him. Somewhere in between when night ended and the day begun, that minute it took for life not to exist, he’d feel him. A gentle presence of pressure against his bare backside, smooth fingers crinkling off-white sheets and raising them up to the base of his shoulders. Sometimes he’d even feel him lean down and tickle the shell of his ear with a sigh, and a...
[Old] Lover (Die x Shinya)
Some of their best evenings were when they would share a hotel room on extensive overseas tours. Die would return from having one or two drinks, and Shinya would be coming out of the shower in a bath robe. Die would always wrap arms around Shinya and toss his body onto the mattress—and pull the robe’s sash off long enough to savor the escaping heat that captivated his lover’s...
[Old] Winter (Kaoru x Shinya)
For winter, Shinya always woke him up once the steam molded against their bedroom window. From a sliver through the bedroom door, his nose could already smell it. The scent of fish cakes boiling and soaking up flavors of potatoes and carrots that Shinya’d prepared the evening before. Kaoru would roll over, skin prickling in discomfort at waking up—but Shinya’s watchful smile...
[Old] beautiful tranquility, hesitation and a...
His fingertips crinkled the window’s curtains, a pasty off-white that he enjoyed because the room always brightened as slivers of sunlight grazed the fabric and shone against the bedroom’s walls. There was something about keeping the room as bright as can be that made breathing easier. Lately, his breath didn’t feel constricted against the walls of his throat and his eyes could...
[Old] Bridge the Gap (Kaoru x Shinya)
Often times Shinya’s band mates would refer to Shinya as a stone canvas, with painted on emotions that were discreet enough to never allow them to know what he was truly feeling. Shinya allowed himself to be reprimanded when his band mates bore their discern with his actions, but the man’s overall quirks never changed. Shinya was a difficult person to get close to, and Kaoru found it...
[THEME] "Stairway to Heaven" (Drugs; LSD)
My head was tilted back, at no particular angle with a dissolved sugar cube that seeped its way into my taste buds. There had been no real taste to enjoy, outside a mild bitterness. I’d waited several seconds, staring at the same portion of the ceiling until I could stand to count every single imperfect that had been carved into the white ceiling. The chips of paint seemed to move on their...
If My Life Were For Rent: To tell a lie; (original...
I am wearing boots that I hate, but try telling that to Audrey, and she’d only make a face at me. Brow creased with her hands tensing at her sides ever so slightly. Audrey loved my boots, and so did Eve, but my feet didn’t. They were brown leather, bought at a” discounted” price of $89.99 with a sewn in zipper that felt like it had embedded itself into the back of my heel....
Monsters (Die x Shinya)
Shinya hears Die’s deep sigh from underneath the white bedspread. He turns on his side for the fifth time, and his arm props itself under his second pillow. Shinya counts how many times Die breathes in. Even with the lights off, he can picture his face - body forced into its own exasperation. Night terrors weren’t a rare thing when it came to Die, especially while they were on tour....
if my life was for rent
It’s not a paper contract, there is no hidden print under your fingernails after signing on the dotted line with a ball-point pen. It’s hidden beneath your skin, and you made no motion to hide any of it. There was a lease on your loyalty before you ever met me, and you were fine with it, though you didn’t hint that to me until your tongue had already been laced with enough...
April 2009
1 post
pulse 2/? (kiyoharu & shinya)
It was six o’clock now, and his lungs couldn’t feel the air that raced between his lips. His eyes were plastered to the clock on the wall, the scent of sterile sickening after six hours in the same chair he had sat in since he had arrived. His body felt like it was molded into the padded backing, the chair hardly designed for an anxious person’s presence. No matter where he...
March 2009
31 posts
if only I could make you mine (drabble; kaoru &...
Insecurity was a plausible, functioning role in human life. It gripped him by the skin of his cheeks, and was present in the air that rushed from his lungs. Kaoru doesn’t know how to react to insecurity because he’d always been sure of himself, but this was one time where he’d not had one foot in the door. Kaoru’s eyes watch him from across the room, and the hesitation is...
the road home (drabble; kaoru & shinya)
Shinya breathes out against his neck and Kaoru loves it, because it’s warm against his skin and it’s a reminder that they’re both alive. Shinya’s resting his hand on his thigh, fingers creasing the denim of his jeans and Kaoru finds it just as arousing as it was playful. Kaoru knows as soon as he gets him off this train, he was going to wrap himself around him, teeth...
chain (drabble; kaoru & shinya)
Fingerprints dried against the bedroom window, leaving sweat soaked dribbles among the mist that gathered from the chilly evening. Kaoru’s fingers wrapped themselves around a narrow, bare hip, while the other hand wrestled with the single metal chain that bound his lover’s wrists. Every couple had their perks, and this was one of their own because Kaoru loved to see Shinya pant and his...
special delivery (drabble; kaoru & shinya)
“The hell is that?” Kyo’s eyebrows raise, his thumb pointed towards the single white flower sitting in the center of Shinya’s kitchen table. Its petals crinkled outward, blossoming in a delicate disarray around its butterscotch center. It looked out of place on the old wooden table that Shinya refused to throw away, but it was attention gripping none the less. “A...
untitled (drabble; karyu & shinya)
He still can feel his breath on his cheek, leaving behind patches of wet skin. His fingers curl around the cotton blanket he’s wrapped in, before he wraps it around Shinya’s shoulders and silently indulges in the subtle breathing intertwined between them both. When they were like this, Karyu could remember that he was still human, and when Shinya was away, Karyu felt like he was...
glass skin (drabble; uruha x ruki)
Autumn straddled the fence between decay and death, the winter winds would come after the leaves on the trees trembled and withered away. Blanketed in shades of gray and white, a still photograph outside an apartment window, the naked trees caked in snow fall tucked so neatly at their trunks. His breath caught against the window, leaving behind moisture that clung to the chilled glass. January....
addiction (drabble; die & shinya)
The ashtray was partially full, and near Shinya’s ankle, and Die was aware he’d left it there regardless of Shinya’s warnings against smoking in the apartment. Die felt his breath catch in his chest, the bathroom door was closed, and Shinya was watching television, he heard the volume through the air pockets underneath the door. Die shuddered, skin clammy and his arms frail...
toguro (1/?; kaoru & shinya)
It’s early in the morning. Early enough that the humidity from the previous night’s rainfall left behind its damp fog across the windows of the studio. He was there early, but earliest was the man in the corner of the studio, with the tip of his boot wedged in wires. He was studying the untouched fingerboard he’d polished some four days ago. He wouldn’t touch it, but...
bottle up your nightmares (drabble; die & shinya)
Asphyxiation of the nightmares made his lips part in his sleep and his brows knit. Shinya watches him for a while, unspoken words mutely falling into harsh breathes. Shinya presses a hand to the side of his face. His palm is warm against his skin, and he notices the bead of sweat gathered at his brow. “Die.” Shinya speaks silently, before his hand moves. Fingertips brush through his...
intoxicated love (drabble; toshiya & shinya)
The cement sidewalk changed with every wavering step he took, off-white to dirt grey, stained with yesterday’s newspaper clippings. It was late. Later than he’d meant it to be, but the shots hadn’t dissolved yet and his vision still confused the spotlights that lined the street with the moon. He’d said he’d be home a little after one o’clock, and it was now...
love actually (drabble; die & shinya)
He was coming home, and Die could feel the anticipation settling in his stomach every time he looked up at the board of incoming flights. It was the day before his twenty-fifth birthday and Shinya had surprised him with a long distance phone call at three o’clock in the morning that same day. “I’m coming home early.” Die’s left sucking in his breath and untangling...
to fly (drabble; wataru & ruki)
“What is this place?” His breath was warm, but the icy wind stung his lips, his eyes squinted as he watched the outline of the man above. He could see the pale skin of his wrist poking free from the sleeve of his winter jacket, climbing each steel plank with precision he couldn’t quite figure out. It was in his dark eyes, between the strands of his blonde hair, what was he...